I’ve recently been bitter as hell. No shame admitting this. It’s been almost four years since I started modeling and I have constantly been pushed out of mainstream.

I get it. “It’s only been four years!” Yeah, but that’s long enough to get a college degree. It’s long enough to learn how fucked this industry is. It’s long enough to learn how to have your guard up every time you post a photo. It is also long enough where other models see your work and steal your ideas and take the praise you missed out on.

This is why I’m bitter. I’m tired of seeing more popular and/or experienced models taking my themes and ideas, and then being praised for it. It has literally happened to me for the last four years. Recently, it happened again and I’m livid.

I’m here trying to glow up, but others are stepping on me while I’m trying. It’s exhausting. I’m trying to prove you can make it by being yourself and creating unique concepts for others to relate to. Apparently, the fat industry is still much more concerned with seeing a commercial model in an editorial being boring as hell. But what do I know?! I’ve only been studying high fashion modeling and photography for the last four years!

This is why I’m fat and bitter.